I'll start off by explaining myself.

I'm 14 years old. Im in year 9. i have a boyfriend. And yeah, i dont no what else i can say.

I dont want people finding out who i am. Incase my friends come on here and realise who i am.

At school, im one of the popular crowd. My boyfriend doesn't go to my school. But its okay i guess. Theres only 3 girls in our crowd the rest are all boys. So its sorta hard working up to the expectations. Me Though, im the least prettest out of all the girls. I might look the skinnest but i dont feel it. I'm fat. I go swimming everyday trying to get a body like the others but its not really going anywhere. The other two girls, well they have boyfriends. One which is in the year above. The Other in my year, me and him are extremely close. Intill they got together. But the girls, there cool. They look out for me.Well, they used to. Intill they spent all there time together double dating and telling eachother gossip. Sometimes, i just feel so alone.

 My Boyfriend. Like i said he doesnt go to my school. So i hardly see him. The other thing is his BestFriend is my BestFriend. Awkard i know. If i split up with my boyfriend would probally leave me with loosing my bestfriend too. I tell my Bestfriend everything, he's the only one i can turn to when im down. Call in the middle of the night when i cant get myself to sleep. Hes the only one thats ever really there for me. But since me and my boyfriend got together. We havent been as close. Its like hes scared to tell me something unless i tell my Boyfriend. Which i would never to. He comes before my Boyfriend.

At the moment, i'm thinking of giving up. Know one realises how much pain im going through. How much i miss just being me.

Its Hard To Look In A Mirror And Be Affraid Of Looking At Whats Coming Back To You.

 Lovee

 The Only One Who Feels My Pain.

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